Monday, July 26, 2010

Last Flower

the houses move and the houses speak


berjalan selalu la heeeeiiiiiii !

YA.

teater Mek Mulung.
Panggung Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur.
24 Julai 2010.


ragut! ragut! ragut! ragut!

orang KL ni pelik pelik..

teater JalanG Belakang Bukit Bintang.
Stor Dewan Bahasa dan Pusaka.
25 Julai 2010.


i just want to talk, please dont interrupt.


pagi pegi class,
balik pegi canselori tapi salah tingkat,
turun balik amik nombor,
tunggu lama untuk dapat cop.
"dik, akak tersalah cop lah"
"err. tak pe lah kak"
tgh hari makan roti,
naik bas pegi class petang,
balik pegi PK,
tunggu lama untuk dapat eyemo je.
"mata awak ni kena habuk, cuba guna ni"
"errr. okey lah"
darn
balik PK naik bas pegi bank,
sampai bank, bank rosak,
pegi bank lain,
"maaf sedang dalam penyelenggaraan"
pegi last atm, kena beratur panjang,
dah beratur, pegi pos ofis,
nak pos laju.
amik nombor, tunggu lama,
sampai kat kaunter,
"adik sampul surat habis, adik turun bawah sekali, beli sampul kat koperasi"
"ohh macam tu pulak. okey"
turun tangga naik tangga,
amik nombor lagi sekali, tunggu lama lagi,
dah sampai kaunter,
"adik, gam dah habis lah"
"AKAK! SAYA NAK CEPAT NI. TAK KAN GAM PON TADE?! BAIK TUTUP JE OFIS NI! MENYUSAHKAN ORANG JE! SAYA PENAT LAH MACAM NI! AKAK TAU TAK KEDAI TU TINGKAT BAWAH SEKALI?!"
"err. jap eh jap. ha nah, ni ada gam"
bodoh. otak kecik.
balik pos ofis, gi cyber cafe. nak print.
pendrive pulak tak leh read.
mother fucker.
otw balik bilik,
rasa cam nak nangis sorang sorang,
tapi tak pe,
hanis, kau kan survivor.
nak gembirakan hati sendiri, beli lah cendol kat cafe.
rupanya indah khabar dari rupa.
cendol rasa cam sampah.
gampang betol.
balik bilik, dah petang.
baring atas katil,
perut kelaparan.
luahkan perasaan berjela jela,
"kesiannya"

ooh. eh? terima kasih.
did i mention i gone through this alone?
and there's tears in my eyes.

teater Malang Sehari.
Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia.
26 Julai 2010


just sit back and listen


i didnt go through a sweet life here.
please try to understand.
as much as i'm trying to fit in.
do you have any idea,
how hard it is to fake a smile?
how difficult it is to force a laugh?
how terrible it is to eat alone?
how sad it is when people treat you like some kind of freak?

i need some space here.


you cant offer me escape

at least i have my theater club.
at least i have __________
at least i have __________
at least i have __________
at least i have __________
at least i have __________

fill in the blank please.


i cannot keep up

there is no reason why i keep on mentioning about you on my every post.
its just that i love you too much.
you know that. right?
of course you do.
its been 30 month now.
memang bodoh lah kalau kau still tak faham perasaan aku kat kau.

dont let this go, Raja Afiq.


i missed my bitches so much. tolong, tolonng bawak i dari sini.

9 comments:

mikhaelahmad said...

dude, kata benci orang bertopeng. g buang fake smile tu jauh-jauh kaih. kalau tak nanti aku panggil kau awang c xD

Hanis Manis said...

haha. aku nak jadi awang yang perut dia kecik sikit tu. taw!

Atiqa Arazmi said...

nk fill satu blank bleyh.. at least u hev me baby~ dun hev to worry la yunk~ i'll olwaz b ur shoulder.. XD

hawa said...

makcik!!!!!! dah dah jangan bersedih berduka lara dah :D hanis kan dah besar? retikan naik bas sampai uitm? meh meh datang sini okay ? :D btw, kte masuk brassband and baru balik camping ni. sakit sakit semua badan AHAHAHA tapi kte power cam hanis. sebab kte sorang sorang jugak kat camp tu :) faham tak apa point kte sekarang? kalau hanis faham hanis memang hebatla. sebab kte takde point :))

mikhaelahmad said...

gah, kata nak gemok. take the other one la.

Ika: bahu kau keras!

eja said...

hanis...:(...jangan sedih....i x suka oh u cm ni...:'(.... i taktau lah...sedih nya u mcm ni....:(....ohmygod...be strong sayang...i love u.-eja-

Hanis Manis said...

adik: haha thanks. :)

hawa: wah hebatnya hawa. gi camp sorang2. tahniah. hee.

eja: dont worry lah babe. it helps me to be even stronger. i love you syg. babe, jgn lupa i eh. :')

mat: mmg aku nak gemok, tapi aku tak nak yg perut besar tu. perut aku dah cukup besar kot.

mikhaelahmad said...

nak gemok bahagian atas sikit. hat tu kena makan jamu ah. bahahaha

Hanis Manis said...

sialan! hahaahahaa.